looking back....

i actually had no intention to babble about anything today

but having this Kim Bum Soo (one of my fav K singer) singing in my ears now...
it somehow makes me feel a litlle sentimental...haha i dunno if its the right word but..it somehow feels that way...i guess that's how good Kim is...he never fails to gets me drowned with his singing.

in fact its his song playing now in the bloggy...보고싶다 = I Miss You
some of u may be familiar with it cos its part of the OST for Stairway to Heaven starring
KSW & CJW :p
i can really cry just listening to tis song. remembered when there was one time..3 years ago? cant remember but i was listening to tis song while looking at some YJ pics and suddenly there were tears... my~ my~ i dunno why...i wasnt crying....but there were so much tears...phew~
talk about having feelings for a man who don even know u exist :p

so anyway....
as i was saying Kim makes me feel sentimental so let me just look back on those years for a moment...

oh~ i almost forgot..im in my 4th year now being part of Bae family ^^

it was WLS that got me started and tis particular guy that got me stuck !

guess it was tis very smile that touched my heart. u know how when joonsang first appeared he'll hv tis 'oh so cool' n sad look on his face? then when things got better he eventually started to smile a little. it was that very snow throwing scene he first had with yujin where he was really SMILING and laughing and making that famous *wink*

THAT was what killed me and banished me to Baeland !

huiyo..i tell u..i was oh so really really soooooo *'lum' at that time i almost melted in my seat.

* lum (canto) = in love. err i actually don really know how to explain tis but u ustand rite?. can somebody out there help me pls.

then i discovered Jaeho. my dear Jaeho...

guess there's no need for any intro to tis 'remarkable' guy. don think i need to explain why i love Jaeho so much. i still remember how sad i was during his final days and how so so so heartbroken i was when he din wake up from his 'sleep'. my mom got worried when i couldnt stop crying and she kept saying 'aiyo its just a drama la. just acting la. don be so chisin !'

well i wasnt chisin. i was REALLY heartbroken ㅠ.ㅠ.....

anyway... 4 years...wow...4 years...can u ever imagine urself being a fan of a star for 4 years??
yeah i know i know we all are fans of some other stars for so so long but hv u been THIS serious? do u DO what u are doing now for other stars??? i thought it'll be just another wind passing by but....it was some wind that just refuse to blow away~

guess i should be considered as among the lucky ones.
having join the family at a time considered to be 'early' especially for the overseas fans..
ive got some of the warmest 'welcome' i could ever get from the family
there weren't many oseas fans back then so the kind of reception i get from the korean family was just amazing. from those simple 'hello how are u? nice to meet you' greetings some of us have now grown to be really close.

some of those great sisters just never fail to surprise u. tis was one of the biggest surprise ive ever got from one of them.

when i first got it i tot it was just a really nice photo that the sis has sent me. but on 2nd look at the pic...i shouted and evone in the house just yelled at me ! really don expect to get something like that after only 2 months (see the date on the pic) being his fan. i was even more touched when she told me how she got me the auto.

later..as the family gets bigger and he got more n more popular...i too got to know more n more sisters all around the world. i wont do a fan-mories like bb's doing cos i don think i'll be able to write as good as her so lets not ruin my fan-mories with my lousy writing. but im especially close to some sisters and they know who they are ^^
moreover...if im to write a fanmories i wouldnt even know where to start or who to start with. allow me to say that...i think the number of ppl ive met all these years as a baefan may hv been one of the most. im not trying to boast but i think its something im really proud of having to meet so many of you. though it may just be a short 'hello goodbye' meet but to me its the 'eye-to-eye' meet and togetherness that matters.

of cos to those i were able to spend some really good time with...
it was really really *jongmal jongmal something that i'll never forget...
even if IF one day should i decide not to like YJ anymore..(will i??)
the moment and the memories will forever be part of me~

*jongmal (korean) = really

a fren of mine was asking me some questions yday nite. n i know very well that she is one of those that don agree with me over all these BYJ stuff.
how i answered her? well lets just say...she sensed that i was a little upset but realised that im still sane n am having a good time ^^
and lets just say she's just worried why im still single. who cares??? bwahaha :p
but u know...the things i learned as part of the bae family is something u cant get out of the 'ordinary life'.

one thing for sure..ive learned to hv more patience.
u know...being a bae mafia one must be wise as to what they should not hear and what they should be listening...what u should be saying and what u should not be telling...how u should be behaving and what u should not be doing when u meet someone.
having met some of the 'highest' ppl (fans included) of Bae family...
i'll say it is those things that keeps the family together. family ties....Bae-ties

oh dear what am i babbling about?? :p

hmm...maybe i should stop babbling here before i go way way out...

before i go...pls allow me to say a BIG thank you to everyone of you out there who's reading tis.
thank you for being part of the family. thank you to all sisters who knows me.

THANK YOU !~

I LOVE YOU ALL !~

ps : sorry if im being a little mushy here but with his song ringing in my ears i just cant help